Everyone thinks that breaking up is a very easy stuff to be done. But for me, it's hard. I know it's time to end this relationship. I'm so tired right now. All I want to is just hope that the time would fly even faster. Let him know what's really going on between us. Perhaps whenever I told him about our problems, he sure act stupidly and ask. When, where, what did I say. Please la. You expect me to tell everything? wth? But, it's ok. all I need to tell you is, I'm tired now. I rather to be single I also don't want to be with you anymore. But yet before I break up with you I admit I met many BOYFRIENDS. But at least they do care about me although they're just part time boyfriend. Yeah, your wish come true. Last time I just used to go out with friends normal chats and movies, at the end you say like I'm going to sleep with them and hugging kissing them like that. So, congratulation. Your dream come true. For you, it was just a joke. For a girl, it hurts much. You just take it easy. And say that I'm the one who make the problem more. Truly disappointed.
Nowadays I'm kinda feel lonely. Just don't ask me why. I do hope that someone would accompany me 24/7. Just to reduce my loneliness. I really hope to find a person who do really care me. But it just as hard as reaching your hand to the stars. Somehow this guy gave me a lesson. Never trust a guy so easily. You told me that you never reply their messages. I used to trust you. But you never trust me before. That's why I used to never trust you that day. I want you to feel what I feel when you use those words to hurt me. The result comes, you're mad. I know it's kind childish when I used to do this. But what can I do? I'm trying to hold this relationship as long as I can. At the end, I'm the only one who holding. It's tiring. You're just take it as a joke. And always.I wish I would cry as loud as I can. hmm...
And now, there's another man that I feel that he's very annoying. When I say NO, I mean it. Please don't keep forcing or something. I will be more hate you. You will never get my attention anymore. Please don't let me feel sick with you. OK?
If I have a wish, I would wish that my heart will never as pain as now. So suffering. 2 years relationship .. It's really hard to give up. I wish to cry as hard as I can right now. But I can't. hmm, let the time changes everything.
