honestly ..

first,
sorry to certain people. i might be rude in my blog or facebook.
but i just want to say what's in my heart.
hard to keep it you know :( 
anyways, if you still think that is my fault, and you all right, 
i will just shut my mouth and say sorry okey??
I'm sorry.

yanyan,
i really feel sorry for ruin your birthday party.
sorry for left the place so early. sorry for everything.
really sorry. and i don't want to explain so much anymore.

sometimes i will feel that if i leave SMKPJ many people will feel happy.
don't you feel that? all people nowadays anti me without any reason.
yeahhh.. it might be some reason, people though that i rampas their friends, i break up with some people and they angry at me .. well, i know. many..
you are just too smart and still don't know the reason only.
a normal people also know my reason. and you still don't know..
ahhh.. don't care. just continue what you want to think.

yeahh.. i got peoblem. a very big problem..
i feel STRESS now..
i stress with friendship problems, family problems, college problems, educational problems..
well, i now want to talk it all is because i feel like goin to stop my school now.
i don't really feel want to continue my SPM..
seriously, STRESS..
facing you all, i more stress.. more tired..
yeahh.. everyone will tell me..
ahh.. don't like that,4 more months..
well, for me.. 4 hour also kinda suffer already..
the only thing i no stress is my relationship problem.. seriously,
i give him freedom, he also give me freedom..
but terms and condition apply -.- LOL
i facing all the problem, already feel stress..
you all so hangfukk also wann to merungut..
why don't you look at other people who more suffer than you?
not me by the way, i will happy go lucky infront of you all..
i don't want any people belas kasihan with me..
i won't accept it. that's why i will live more happily infront of you all..
but, nowadays whenever i go to school, i feel the stress, i feel the tired..
i saw my friends, i saw my books, i feel tired..
can i run away from these things?
no way, mami won't let that thing happen..
she wants me to finish my spm..
just now somemore give me counseling -.-
arhhh -.- stresssss...
so, from now on,
i want to focus in my SPM..
friendship, i will throw away beside.. maybe it won't increase my stress.
family.. well, how to throw -.-
books, carry on for 4 months then burn it. -.-
arhhh -.-
feel like run away from my life..
don't feel like going out again -.-
don't feel like going to school again :(
never mind..
all i can do, only these thing..
ok lar..
tears dropped finished,
time to sleep.
good night .